H20 Water and Flow

This post is about flow. You say What!? Flow!? Yes, Flow. If you thought this post is about Water Your sadly mistaken, this is about life's flow. I've been realizing this past week after coming back from Cali, that my flow is all jacked up before embarking on my adventure to California. *Just a side note California is a beautiful state and I would not mind getting a job in Cali if God willing. Anywho just to throw it out there, I've been realizing that lately I've been confusing my flow with other peoples. I compare my life with peoples and set their expectations to mine. For instance, JOBS! I see people with Jobs, making bank, and young as hell, and look at me 23 and jobless. This is a suck situation right? I used to feel crippled by such thoughts, and I'm not going to lie but such thoughts still linger, but as of now I'm just going to put my self in the best positions and trust God with them. Even if I have to work at the mall or Panera, or wherever I will trust God and work my ass off.

My prayer to God is this:

The situations I'm in might be daunting, But help me not to give up this joy I have in You, Help me to accept struggle and pain and weakness and learn to come to You with that, Help me to run with urgency both in work and at home and help me to be satisfied in what is real and not what keeps me down and out.

To my brothers and sisters fighting in the same fight.

Let Hope Rise.

-Danny

Summer Chronicles: God of our Circumstances (Song)

So I finally finished it! For all of ya'll that are having a hard time with life and everything, keep fighting, don't lose hope, Trust what God is doing because He's got it all under control.

Circumstances -Danny Choi

Got to let it load a bit before you play or it'll sound choppy.

Anywho Hopefully I can write and sing more throughout this summer so stay tuned!! =P

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Summer Chronicles: Flower Shop TOP 5, #5

So I leave you with a rendition of the Danny Choi TOP 5 CRAZY MOMENTS IN FLOWER SHOP HISTORY. STARTING AT #5

5. I was driving to a place in Catonsville. That joint was during the traffic hour on rt. 40 like 4-5:30ish and the road were packed. I was freaking out because I had to make my delievery by 5:45PM, it said on the instructions. This is pretty wild because I had deliever a vase filled with 2 dozen roses. The thing is I was stuck dude, cars laid out like sardines in a can, hot 90 degree weather, almost like that charcoal commerical where all the cars are retarded and people are having a barbque on the freeway, it was horrible. Then suddenly, I saw an opening, A hole that would take me to the promise land, take me to victory, SHAWSHANK REDEMPTION type of Freedom, like when the main character was in the rain on his knees with his arms spread open to the sky, YES THAT KIND OF FREEDOM!

Anywho I tried to take it fast, quick signal and everything. I hit the lane with my sentra and was driving all fine until a man came zooming out into the lane with no signal. Oh man people who don't signal drive me up the wall, but in this particular case it was tragic. I see him a lil too late stop the car and veer left a slight bit. I thought I was all fine and dandy until i hear the *SPLASH*. I turn to the passenger seat and realize my flowers are GONE!!! I look down at the floor, a puddle of water all over the place, random leaves in random areas floating around, vase at a 45 degree angle and no water to show for it.

(Just to take a quick timeout, this is one of the multiple "What the F" moments in delivering. I mean some of my friends love the job, I hear ya, it can be somewhat relaxing on Good days, yet, You come across one of these moments, and the water turns your seats brown, and people come into your car and it looks like someone took a crap on your seats. Yes ITS "WHAT THE F"! )

Anywho, Too get back into it, One must ask him or herself what do I do!? How do I get water into my vase, and not be questioned by people, why I have a big ass vase in my hand. The story continues with me stopping by taco bell. off of rt. 40, That jammies in my mind had a door in which led to the bathroom on the side, and was no where near the cashier area. I quickly tried to be a cat burglaresk, but common dude my frame, my weight, and my lack of coordination is no where near cat burglaresk! HAHA regardless I rush in fill that Jammies up and run out like a immigrant trying to hit the U.S border. Crazy! I get in my car, weave through the traffic, rearrange the flowers to somewhat look like they haven't been tossed out and broken and delivered the goods. This is my #5 of all time crazy moments in the flower shop.

Summer Chronicles: F them Mosquitos

These mosquitos in my new house have a secret way of getting in here they keep biting me!! FFF Wait till i find them there all dead!!!!! I'll smash them!!!

Summer Chronicles: Circumstances

Today was pretty interesting. I had morning breakfast with B-Izzle, and man that was good dude. There's alot of things that you think you can do on your own. Especially Human beings now-a-days, what happened to the good old days, farmers helping other farmers, neighbors helping neighbors, and the church actually caring for the needs of its people. I think thats why I love these interactions not just with B but lately with my friends and family, and most of all random people. Like for instance, one time I was SO PUMPED and SO STOKED and SO FEELING THE MUSIC, I was dancing in my car flowing with the song, to my unfortunate dismay, this black lady was staring at me next to me in the other car hysterically laughing at me. HAHAH dang dude I was red as the Kool-Aid man haha freakin! But I smiled at her and said Hi. Honestly I probably made her day as a joke, but you know what I'm glad I made her smile because we don't interact on a daily basis. But regardless thank you B and also, to get to my point I learned alot about things today. I learned the fact that sometimes I'm too into "my" life and into "my" own thinking that I forget about everything else. Sometimes when I get pissed or when I'm down or when I feel like crap, I blame it on my circumstances, I blame it on the things around me as a reason for my actions. I forget about the God who lives in me. The God who is not just Forever and Eternal, but the God that is Here and Now, who is in my every circumstance. I thank my friend B for sharing this with me, because honestly I am a cry baby with my circumstances, and alot of times when things don't go right, I don't go right. And to be honest it affects people and it doesn't show the power of God. That God can overcome! If God can overcome sin and death, what makes you think that he can't overcome, family problems, depression, bankruptcy, injustice, insecurities. I don't know everything, and I sure as hell not going to front that I've been through every problem, but than again I do know in my life God has been faithful in my circumstances no doubt, its just how I want to respond to him in my other ones that are hard. Anywho if you don't understand what the F I'm talking about its straight, Sometimes I don't even understand what I'm talking about. But I leave you with something that I wrote. 

I have money and now I don’t

Insecurities have blasted past the façades that I have shown

In these moments and in these times

I find it hard to keep it all together

 

Jobless, no hope in sight

Depressed with symptoms of social blight

I’m feeling Emo, out of control

Selling myself to people that I don’t , I don’t know

 

These circumstance drown me out

I’m living life with a world of doubts

And all I see is me, broken in apathy

Taken back by the moment’s touch

I need something that is strong enough

To save me 

To save me from me

 

So Let yourself go, and look to the Cross

and He will find you even when your lost

Be still and know that he is God

  

Summer Chronicles: The Move

Sometimes the unexpected, has a way of not just unfoiling your plans, and totally messing with your mind......

Today was Day 3 of the move and one of the hardest mentally. Honestly I never thought "moving" itself would be so stressful. But yeah no U-hauls, no moving people, equals seriously suck man! I think the culmination of driving the same route in the same van, moving random items, and possibly useless things that you never have used in your life kind of gets to you. But I guess that's how things work. Not to mention that all possibilities of comfort is currently out the door. The sad part is that my brother's on missions which is cool, yet I'm sort of bitter because he gets to travel and I get to move boxes, he gets to see ancient cities, and I get to see ancient antiques, he gets to sweat in Rome, and I smell like don go mok and have like 2 pairs of boxers before i go empty!!! HELP!! and on top of that I find myself not "taking back my life", I kind of feel like deer in the headlights about to get rocked by a 18 wheel semi. Oh how I'm making this more dramatic as it is, haha yes, but then again you blog whores love this stuff right!?

Anywho, I guess I get to fight another day, Survival is the goal of this week, less fighting, more doing, and hopefully in some weird sort of way I'll learn something on the way. 

Thank You Dave Shelton! Your PICTURE ROCKS! 

-Danny