Summer Chronicles: Circumstances

Today was pretty interesting. I had morning breakfast with B-Izzle, and man that was good dude. There's alot of things that you think you can do on your own. Especially Human beings now-a-days, what happened to the good old days, farmers helping other farmers, neighbors helping neighbors, and the church actually caring for the needs of its people. I think thats why I love these interactions not just with B but lately with my friends and family, and most of all random people. Like for instance, one time I was SO PUMPED and SO STOKED and SO FEELING THE MUSIC, I was dancing in my car flowing with the song, to my unfortunate dismay, this black lady was staring at me next to me in the other car hysterically laughing at me. HAHAH dang dude I was red as the Kool-Aid man haha freakin! But I smiled at her and said Hi. Honestly I probably made her day as a joke, but you know what I'm glad I made her smile because we don't interact on a daily basis. But regardless thank you B and also, to get to my point I learned alot about things today. I learned the fact that sometimes I'm too into "my" life and into "my" own thinking that I forget about everything else. Sometimes when I get pissed or when I'm down or when I feel like crap, I blame it on my circumstances, I blame it on the things around me as a reason for my actions. I forget about the God who lives in me. The God who is not just Forever and Eternal, but the God that is Here and Now, who is in my every circumstance. I thank my friend B for sharing this with me, because honestly I am a cry baby with my circumstances, and alot of times when things don't go right, I don't go right. And to be honest it affects people and it doesn't show the power of God. That God can overcome! If God can overcome sin and death, what makes you think that he can't overcome, family problems, depression, bankruptcy, injustice, insecurities. I don't know everything, and I sure as hell not going to front that I've been through every problem, but than again I do know in my life God has been faithful in my circumstances no doubt, its just how I want to respond to him in my other ones that are hard. Anywho if you don't understand what the F I'm talking about its straight, Sometimes I don't even understand what I'm talking about. But I leave you with something that I wrote. 

I have money and now I don’t

Insecurities have blasted past the façades that I have shown

In these moments and in these times

I find it hard to keep it all together

 

Jobless, no hope in sight

Depressed with symptoms of social blight

I’m feeling Emo, out of control

Selling myself to people that I don’t , I don’t know

 

These circumstance drown me out

I’m living life with a world of doubts

And all I see is me, broken in apathy

Taken back by the moment’s touch

I need something that is strong enough

To save me 

To save me from me

 

So Let yourself go, and look to the Cross

and He will find you even when your lost

Be still and know that he is God